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Pernahkah Anda dipuji?
Pernahkah Anda mendapat komentar yg bagus ? Atau yang ada malah komentar yg jelek yg Anda terima ketika pertama kalinya Anda bercakap dgn orang yg sudah lama Anda tidak temui?

Apakah Anda kesal kalau Anda dibandingkan dengan teman Anda?dari segi fisik seperti ukuran tubuh (tinggi berat lebar dll), sampai kemaampuan otak Anda atau pun tingkat kedewasaan Anda?
Atau Aku yg terlalu berpikiran sempit yang menganggap komentar sinis dan proses banding membandingkan dgn teman, adalah perbuatan yg menjatuhkan mental, fisik, semangat dan kekuatan Aku.

Orang tua ku mengatakan komentar org adalah sesuatu yg bisa membangun Anda. Tapi itu tidak selalu benar!*atau itu hanya pendapatku saja?*
Bagaimana bisa maju kalau Anda tidak pernah dipuji sesuatu yg bagus saat Anda mencoba?
Bagaimana bisa maju kalau setiap saat Anda mencoba selalu diberi komentar negative?

Atau mungkin Aku org yg tidak mau menerima komentar jelek. Aku orang yang berpikiran sempit dan tidak mau dikritik buat lebih maju?

Beck-

homesick

Sorry my blog. I hvnt updated you for ages (*lebay). I was pretty busy these weeks because I had 3 reports to be done and 1 perdisco finance.

Anw, if u asked me how I was last night, I would say that I was so damn bad. My mood was upside down. I was pretty upset last night. I suddenly got homesick, omg! It has been about 1 year and 1 month, I am staying in Perth. Why did I got it last night? To be honest, I was crying last night. :(( I miss my brothers, Yoga and Yudo; my mum; my dad; and my granny (*pho2). 

I may look strong outside, but I am so 'fragile' inside.:( I can cry quickly if I think bout my family. They are my no.1 in my heart. Noone can replace them.:) 

Actually, I have got used to live independently for 3 years when I was in senior high school. The story began like this, I went to Khuntien or known as Pontianak where is 3 hours journey from my hometown (my real hometown is where I grew up, went to school and had lots of fun w/ my best childhood fds); Singkawang. It was all for the better education. So, I live in the boarding house (*kos) for 3 years. Those 3 years were not easy fun years at all. I hv to be a strong, independent girl. I left home when I was 15 yo*If I am not mistaken*. I went to a new strange tough environment. The first week I was there, I got a terribly homesick. I cried everynight eventhough my parents called me everynight to make sure I was alright. I said that I am alright, dont worry. However, after the call, I would start crying. TT I was about to quit the school there when I just got to the 3rd orientation days because my best fd also quit the school and moved back to Singkawang.:( I was terribly sad...I got a problem to because I got punishment from one of the teacher as my skirt was too short (WTH!!). Suddenly, on that day when my fd moved back and I got punishment, I went home with the sad face, I saw my mum waiting in the boarding house. OMG! I was so shocked..I cant believe my eyes.
We went around Pontianak*Khuntien for 1 day.:) wt a lovely day it was!!

I am here now, in Perth, alone; no family with me, I live far far far (thousand miles) from my comfort zone with my lovely supportive family.:( sometimes I felt envy w/ my fds who have the family here. I want to be able to talk to my mum everyday after uni. Seeing my dad everyday, talking face-to-face w/ my two brothers and going out for the weekend together are the happies things in my life.:) 

I dont really like rainy night with the thunder storm and strong wind because I will feel homesick!!! those situations make me miss my mum, and my family. :(

I miss my brothers in term of 'talking' and 'sharing' our stories and experiences we just got.

When I am eating something tht I know that one of my family (my mum or dad or brothers) loves it so much. I will get the homesick feeling.:(

I miss my mum's cooking. I miss my dad's protection. I miss my brothers' laugh and fun-times together. I miss my granny's complaints about my bad habits.

I miss my house's smell. As I believe, every houses have their own smell. The smell depends on the owner and ppl who live there. 

I got the homesick feeling several times for 1 year. I tried not to show it out to everyone here. I want people know that I am a strong girl, I wont let my tears drop easily. I hv been growing to an adult; mature-wise-strong-girl.:)

I wont let my family down. Wt I hv promised, I will try to do and prove! :) 

all the best for me!!

CHEERS,

Rebecca

Whe you are in doubt, keep out!! :D

Piuh!!bercucuran keringat rasanya. Gimana ngga, dri hari minggu*rencana belajar bwt finance intro e, malah sibuk nge-net ampe wkt seharian terbuang sia2. Dan baru mulai belajar sungguh2 pas minggu malamny itupun ga maksimal dri 3 chapter yg harus dikuasai up side down, back to front, right to left, baru 1 chapter yg terbaca pas minggu malamny. OMG!!freak out!!!


hari Senin, kuputuskan bwt bangun awal, e pas alarm bunyi malah aku pencet bwt tidur lgi. Aiyoo. anak MALAS!!!haha..oke, bangun, sarapan dan belajar sampe jam 11 sblm siap2 bwt ke Curtin, baru 1 chapter terselesekan..SHIT happened!!one more chapter left!!hahahaha..

Well, Monday night I studied like hell, after that I couldnt stand it again and I decided to go to bed at 9. Hahaha..then, i got up this morning around 7 am. 10 hours sleep!!OMG!!huge giant baby..hahaha..

Jreng...My finance test was in CAA lab, which is at lvl 5 of Robertson Library in Curtin Uni.hahaha.

I booked it in August the test time. Before the test, I got the tutorial for Strategic Games, class went smoothly. hahaha..:D one thing that I was afraid is the finance intro mid test, everyone said to me that many students were failed last semester..it was freak me out!! i tried to stay clam. Fortunately, I could do so.. :D

I went to the lab, and started doing my test! Shit!!!at first I couldnt do the theory part (around 10 questions), I was totally blank!!hahaha..well, I did the calculation 1st, okay. They were done, back to the first 10 questions. Baca2, isi2, pikir2. Done!! At the last 50 seconds, I changed my mind of 2 questions. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! when i checked it, I had got the answers correct before. I changed to the wrong ones!!!!!HOLLY CRAP~~~

I was so pissed-off!!!!

hal tersebut ga hanya terjadi sx *pergantian jawaban dri yg bnr ke yg slh gara2 keraguan di last mins*. Dulu pas mid test econ 100, htay2 lecturer aku jg blg, " Rebecca, why did u change ur answers? U had got them right. I had told u to stick on one answer only." I was regret..so regret!! After that, macro 200, same thing happened. If i didnt change my mind, I would get 20/20.. :(

Now, I did the same mistake at finance intro mid-test!!aiyoo!! My homestay mother told me an old saying that WHEN YOU ARE IN DOUBT, KEEP OUT (<3 this old saying).kayakny cocok abis ama diriku..hahaha.. :P

Klo ada masalah seperti itu lgi, aku akan percaya akan pilihan aku yg pertama, pede dikit knapa?klo trus diragukan dan dipikirkan, akhirnya akan dpt yg salah.. :D

start blogging

Aku bkn pujangga, jgn bkn penulis novel terkenal. Aku hanyalah seorg gadis biasa yg sedang mengenyam pendidikan di negeri kangguru. Di saat semua teman2 aku sudah pny blog, aku baru akan memulai blog aku. emank sedikit ketinggalan sih.haha..tpi ya dripada ga sama sekali ya gpp toh. :)

Ini adalah blog pertama ku! Welcome to my blog.

Posting pertama dibuat di hari sabtu pagi yang sedikit berawan di Perth *maafkan aku klo bhs indo aku kaco abis*haha. :D

Sedikit bnyk blog ne bklan menjadi diari aku..*smoga saja aku pny wkt bwt update ne blog. 

berhubung aku tinggal seorg diri di negeri kangguru ne, tidak ada t4 bwt berbagi smw kejadian yg aku alami slama 1x24 jam, blog ne akan menjadi t4 aku berbagi suka dan duka aku.

Sekarang aku sudah berada di 2nd year, 1st semester di Curtin Business School. Ya sikit bnyk sudah aku mencoba keras utk bisa beradaptasi dgn lingkungan uni yg keras itu. hahaha. :) dimana lecture dan tutorial yg berada di hari yg berbeda, harus jalan sana sini bwt menuju ke kelas yg ada. Tdk ada hubungan yg erat antara lecturer dan murid2ny*aku rasa mrk sndiri ga gitu tau muridny sapa2 aja.

Idk since when I love Economics.haha. :P

anw, back to topic. Aku sudah dpt gelar diploma aku loh!!haha..cihuy~~Dan aku memutuskan utk mengambil 2majors:economics and finance*pilihan yg jarang terjadi utk seorg anak perempuan, kebnykan tmn2 mengambil accounting and finance or marketing and finance. haha..idk wt has made me choose tht majors. however, I enjoy my majors so much. 

Units2 yg aku ambil semester ne smw penuh dgn assignments, yakni:

These are the books for my units in this semester

• microeconomics 200
• macroeconomics 300
• strategic games 201
• finance (introductory) 201

berusaha melakukan yg terbaik yg aku bisa krn sudah memutuskan bljr ne majors. :D overall, asik kq, asal sungguh2 aja.hahaha.. :)

wkt membwt blog ne, aku seharusny mempersiapkan diri bwt hadapin mid-test bwt mgg dpn hari slasa dan jumat yakni finance dan micro200. tpi malah nge-blog.haha..dasar~~

Sekian dl posting pertama aku! I promise to keep it up-to-date d. :)

Cheers,

Rebecca Gilbert